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cousin"Then he moved his head to the right just enough so he could brush his cheek against the part of my arm that was near his face and after that he closed his eyes and fell asleep while I lay there and wondered if that's the feeling you're suppose to have when your cousin touches a totally innocent part of your anatomy that's even fully clothed" (page 29, Ch. 6)
"We couldn't go on. We went on" (155).
"I felt a little pissed off at all those spy shows where the guy gets blindfolded and thrown onto the floor of the backseat and finds his way home by the noise of a chicken here and two bumps in the road there and a dog barking in the key of D which I can tell you now from experience is a load of crap, well who'd have guessed it" (72).
"I don't get nearly enough credit in life for the things I manage not to say" (77).
"No matter how much you put on a sad expression and talked about how awful it was that all those people were killed and what about democracy and the Future of Our Great Nation the fact that none of us kids said out loud was the WE DIDN'T REALLY CARE" (42-43).
"After looking at me for a few seconds more she put her hand up very gently and pushed the hair off my face in a way that for some reason made me feel incredibly sad..." (Chapter 4, p. 15)
"I frightened myself. I became the ghost Piper was so scared of." (Ch. 29, p. 162)
"It was only a few months ago that there was finally a pause in the thousands of wars being waged all over the planet. Or was it one big war? I forget.
I think everyone has." (Chapter 2, p. 171)
"We were quiet for the longest time just listening to the rain on the window with his leg resting against mine and a feeling flying between us in a crazy jagged way like a bird caught in a room." (44)
"Early the next morning I was strolling around as usual in my unpleasantly populated subconscious..." (Chapter 5, p. 17)
"It's a shame, starting out your first day on the planet as a murderer but there you go, I didn't have much choice at the time." (Chapter 5, p. 19)
"the fact that none of us kids said outloud was that WE DIDN'T REALLY CARE." (chp 9, pg 43)
"I guess there was a war going on somewhere in the world that night but it wasn't one that could touch us" (chp 14, pg 64)
"actually doing something might stop us from dying of boredom, which I was starting to realize was a major killer in a modern war." (chp 17 pg 88)
"...but I guess what you really want to know are the things you can't ask like Did she have eyes like yours and When you pushed my hair back was that what it feels like to have your mother do it and Did her hands look serious and quiet like yours and Did she ever have a chance to look at me with a complicated expression like the one on your face, and by the way Was she scared to die." (Chapter 5, p. 20)
"...and Edmond just lay there smoking and telling me he loved me without saying anything out loud..." (Chapter 13, p. 64)
"We didn't speak but I held Piper's hand and told her over and over that I loved her through the blood beating in my veins and running down through my hand and into her fingers." (Chapter 26, p. 144)
" I was dying, of course, but then we all are. Every day, in perfect increments, I was dying of loss.
The only help for my condition, then as now, is that I refused to let go of what I loved. I wrote everything down, at first in choppy fragments; a sentence here, a few words there, it was the most I could stand at the time. Later, I wrote more, my grief muffled but not eased by the passage of time.
When I go back over my writing now I can barely read it. The happiness is the worst. Some days I can't bring myself to remember. But i will not relinquish a single detail of the past. What remains of my life depends on what happened six years ago..
In my brain, in my limbs, in my dreams, it is still happening." (Chapter 1, p. 168)
"The fact of his existence are plain. I know that he will never silence those unspeakable voices." (p.193)
"It was getting to be like Walt Disney on Ecstasy outside the house what with squirrels and hedgehogs and deer wandering around." (Chapter 11,p. 53)
"Everyone else stayed home and used the Internet, less worried about the quality of the information than the suicide bombers."(Chapter 2, p. 171)
"That room seemed like the safest i'd ever been in my life, which just goes to show how wrong a person can be out whats in store for them but here I go jumping the gun again." ( Ch. 3, P9)
"So I lay there all dreamy and thought about Aunt Penn, and my life so far, and got a little bit of a flashback of what it was like to be happy." (Ch. 5, P18)
"The tabloids waxed nostalgic for the good old days of WWII, when the enemy all spoke a foreign language and the army went somewhere else to fight."(Ch. 3, P176)
"I slipped off to be with Edmond and we said even less than usual only climbed inside each other for comfort and oblivion and fell asleep that way wrapped in black sheep blankets and together dreamt a single dream that there was no one left in the world but us" (Ch14, P67)
"So there we are carrying on our happy little life of underage sex, child labor and espionage when someone came to visit us, which, after weeks of Just Us Five kind of took us by suprise, to put it mildly." (Chapter 12, P 57)
"...one of the thoughts I had was how you could love someone more than yourself and any worry about getting stuck in the middle of a war and ending up dead was transferred onto worrying about keeping them alive." (Chapter 16, P 79-80)
"...but later when you look back on the whole story you realize that the moment she left was exactly the moment we all started skewing off into crisis like how Archduke Ferdinand getting killed started WWI even though the connection, to me at least, was never that clear." (Ch. 6 p. 24)
"...it felt much nicer than usual to be alive even if it meant a bunch of fish were going to have to die." (Ch. 5 p. 17)
"...and even though I didn't know what to do with an egg straight from a chicken's bottom I thought it was a nice thing to do." (Ch. 4, p 13)
"It was the first time as long as I could rememberthat hunger wasn't a punishment or a crime or a weapon or a mode of self-destruction" (Ch. 11, p 53)
"The only thing I knew for certain was that all around me was more life than I'd ever experienced in all the years I'd been on earth and as long as no one shut me in the barn away from Edmond at night I was safe." (Ch. 11, p56)
"...I wondered very quietly to myself What Was Happening Here but of course it doesn't matter how quietly you wonder things when Edmond is listening. It takes a whole lot of practice to get used to being careful about what you think in the privacy of your own brain." (Ch. 9, p44)
"Which one would you choose, the rock or the hard place?" (Ch.1, p19)
"'That's it,' Piper said. "That's the end." But I knew it wasn't. They'd left out a chapter. The one where the hero comes home to find me gone" (Ch.5, p191)
"...Edmond was not corruptible. Some people are just like that and if you don't believe me it means you've never met one of them yourself. Which is your loss" (Ch. 10, p. 49).
"If you haven't been in a war and are wondering how long it takes to get used to losing everything you think you need or love, I can tell you the answer is No time at all" (Ch. 21, p. 111).
"In my brain, in my limbs, in my dreams, it is still happening."
"That nigth I slept the deep dreamless sleep of the dead" (ch. 26, p.147).
"I tried eating a little bit of bacon today because Edmond particularly asked me to but it tasted like pig and I gagged," (34).
"You could zig zag and make turns on a sudden whim and stop for tea and cut across a few back streets and decide that today would be a good time to do something totally different and try that bakery that none of you normally went to when in actual fact you had plenty of bread already at home so there'd be no reason to be in a bakery at all, and the next time you looked up Isaac would be right at your elbow, totally casual, like he'd been there all along or possibly just followed your train of thought through the crowd," (36-7).
"...with all that time on my hands I couldn't help wondering why life in a windowless barn thousands of miles from America surrounded by soldiers felt more real than most of the real life I'd ever lived through," (117).
"We couldn't go on. We went on" (155).
"I felt a little pissed off at all those spy shows where the guy gets blindfolded and thrown onto the floor of the backseat and finds his way home by the noise of a chicken here and two bumps in the road there and a dog barking in the key of D which I can tell you now from experience is a load of crap, well who'd have guessed it" (72).
"I don't get nearly enough credit in life for the things I manage not to say" (77).
"No matter how much you put on a sad expression and talked about how awful it was that all those people were killed and what about democracy and the Future of Our Great Nation the fact that none of us kids said out loud was the WE DIDN'T REALLY CARE" (42-43).
"After looking at me for a few seconds more she put her hand up very gently and pushed the hair off my face in a way that for some reason made me feel incredibly sad..." (Chapter 4, p. 15)
"I frightened myself. I became the ghost Piper was so scared of." (Ch. 29, p. 162)
"It was only a few months ago that there was finally a pause in the thousands of wars being waged all over the planet. Or was it one big war? I forget.
I think everyone has." (Chapter 2, p. 171)
"We were quiet for the longest time just listening to the rain on the window with his leg resting against mine and a feeling flying between us in a crazy jagged way like a bird caught in a room." (44)
"Early the next morning I was strolling around as usual in my unpleasantly populated subconscious..." (Chapter 5, p. 17)
"It's a shame, starting out your first day on the planet as a murderer but there you go, I didn't have much choice at the time." (Chapter 5, p. 19)
"the fact that none of us kids said outloud was that WE DIDN'T REALLY CARE." (chp 9, pg 43)
"I guess there was a war going on somewhere in the world that night but it wasn't one that could touch us" (chp 14, pg 64)
"actually doing something might stop us from dying of boredom, which I was starting to realize was a major killer in a modern war." (chp 17 pg 88)
"...but I guess what you really want to know are the things you can't ask like Did she have eyes like yours and When you pushed my hair back was that what it feels like to have your mother do it and Did her hands look serious and quiet like yours and Did she ever have a chance to look at me with a complicated expression like the one on your face, and by the way Was she scared to die." (Chapter 5, p. 20)
"...and Edmond just lay there smoking and telling me he loved me without saying anything out loud..." (Chapter 13, p. 64)
"We didn't speak but I held Piper's hand and told her over and over that I loved her through the blood beating in my veins and running down through my hand and into her fingers." (Chapter 26, p. 144)
" I was dying, of course, but then we all are. Every day, in perfect increments, I was dying of loss.
The only help for my condition, then as now, is that I refused to let go of what I loved. I wrote everything down, at first in choppy fragments; a sentence here, a few words there, it was the most I could stand at the time. Later, I wrote more, my grief muffled but not eased by the passage of time.
When I go back over my writing now I can barely read it. The happiness is the worst. Some days I can't bring myself to remember. But i will not relinquish a single detail of the past. What remains of my life depends on what happened six years ago..
In my brain, in my limbs, in my dreams, it is still happening." (Chapter 1, p. 168)
"The fact of his existence are plain. I know that he will never silence those unspeakable voices." (p.193)
"It was getting to be like Walt Disney on Ecstasy outside the house what with squirrels and hedgehogs and deer wandering around." (Chapter 11,p. 53)
"Everyone else stayed home and used the Internet, less worried about the quality of the information than the suicide bombers."(Chapter 2, p. 171)
"That room seemed like the safest i'd ever been in my life, which just goes to show how wrong a person can be out whats in store for them but here I go jumping the gun again." ( Ch. 3, P9)
"So I lay there all dreamy and thought about Aunt Penn, and my life so far, and got a little bit of a flashback of what it was like to be happy." (Ch. 5, P18)
"The tabloids waxed nostalgic for the good old days of WWII, when the enemy all spoke a foreign language and the army went somewhere else to fight."(Ch. 3, P176)
"I slipped off to be with Edmond and we said even less than usual only climbed inside each other for comfort and oblivion and fell asleep that way wrapped in black sheep blankets and together dreamt a single dream that there was no one left in the world but us" (Ch14, P67)
"So there we are carrying on our happy little life of underage sex, child labor and espionage when someone came to visit us, which, after weeks of Just Us Five kind of took us by suprise, to put it mildly." (Chapter 12, P 57)
"...one of the thoughts I had was how you could love someone more than yourself and any worry about getting stuck in the middle of a war and ending up dead was transferred onto worrying about keeping them alive." (Chapter 16, P 79-80)
"...but later when you look back on the whole story you realize that the moment she left was exactly the moment we all started skewing off into crisis like how Archduke Ferdinand getting killed started WWI even though the connection, to me at least, was never that clear." (Ch. 6 p. 24)
"...it felt much nicer than usual to be alive even if it meant a bunch of fish were going to have to die." (Ch. 5 p. 17)
"...and even though I didn't know what to do with an egg straight from a chicken's bottom I thought it was a nice thing to do." (Ch. 4, p 13)
"It was the first time as long as I could rememberthat hunger wasn't a punishment or a crime or a weapon or a mode of self-destruction" (Ch. 11, p 53)
"The only thing I knew for certain was that all around me was more life than I'd ever experienced in all the years I'd been on earth and as long as no one shut me in the barn away from Edmond at night I was safe." (Ch. 11, p56)
"...I wondered very quietly to myself What Was Happening Here but of course it doesn't matter how quietly you wonder things when Edmond is listening. It takes a whole lot of practice to get used to being careful about what you think in the privacy of your own brain." (Ch. 9, p44)
"He even smiles occasionally, remembering, and that's when I turn sideways and look at his face, trace his scars with my finger and without speaking I tell him again and again that I'm home." (Ch. 6, p.193)
"Which one would you choose, the rock or the hard place?" (Ch.1, p19)
"'That's it,' Piper said. "That's the end." But I knew it wasn't. They'd left out a chapter. The one where the hero comes home to find me gone" (Ch.5, p191)
"...Edmond was not corruptible. Some people are just like that and if you don't believe me it means you've never met one of them yourself. Which is your loss" (Ch. 10, p. 49).
"If you haven't been in a war and are wondering how long it takes to get used to losing everything you think you need or love, I can tell you the answer is No time at all" (Ch. 21, p. 111).
"In my brain, in my limbs, in my dreams, it is still happening."
"That nigth I slept the deep dreamless sleep of the dead" (ch. 26, p.147).
"I tried eating a little bit of bacon today because Edmond particularly asked me to but it tasted like pig and I gagged," (34).
"You could zig zag and make turns on a sudden whim and stop for tea and cut across a few back streets and decide that today would be a good time to do something totally different and try that bakery that none of you normally went to when in actual fact you had plenty of bread already at home so there'd be no reason to be in a bakery at all, and the next time you looked up Isaac would be right at your elbow, totally casual, like he'd been there all along or possibly just followed your train of thought through the crowd," (36-7).
"...with all that time on my hands I couldn't help wondering why life in a windowless barn thousands of miles from America surrounded by soldiers felt more real than most of the real life I'd ever lived through," (117).
